The Soul That Never Felt From Here
Born Human, But Not Only That
As we see a body being born, many
of us assume that that’s all there is. We are that baby, that person who is
born, so we are automatically human. But our essence isn’t visible. It’s felt.
I knew I wasn’t from here since I
was a child.
The Night the Stars Woke Me Up
When I was nine years old, I was
watching the clear, starry sky. I suddenly felt terribly homesick, and I
literally felt a huge hole inside my heart, like a piece was missing. It deeply
hurt my soul, my heart, and everything else.
I wanted to go back home
painfully and desperately, but I was aware that my journey on this plane had
just begun. At least I knew who I was looking for and why I was born here. The
stars are still a wake-up point for me. Even in the astral world, they are used
to waking me up.
At that moment, I prayed, cried,
and begged God. But that wasn’t enough. I went to my room and begged on my
knees. I knew I was looking for my twin flame. I knew I was born into a
dysfunctional family, so I would pursue what was real and reject what was fake
as well.
Not Physical — A Soul Recognition
Obviously, I didn’t see it in a
sexual way, even though I had early access to things a child shouldn’t have
had. Still, I was just looking for the deepest emotional and spiritual
connection — the soul bond that lives as one soul in two bodies here on Earth.
Right now, I can tell you that I
met the soul I was looking for, and I feel immensely grateful and indefinitely
blessed. I cannot explain the enormous difference between what we imagine and
what we actually live. I always believed and imagined it many times, but living
it is on another level.
My search lasted twenty-eight
years, and I went through hell. But it was so worth it to find the one.
Healing Before Union
I had to be prepared. I was
neglected, abused, and traumatized since childhood, so I had to go through a
very long process of healing, regaining balance, and even finding myself again.
Before you think about a
relationship — especially one of this magnitude — make sure you heal most of
your past trauma, including emotional codependency, PTSD, and abandonment
issues.
Never think that just because you
were deeply hurt, you don’t deserve love or that you will never find it. That’s
the trap of the darkness. It wants you to feel worthless, useless, and stuck,
so you never pursue what is meant for you.
From Codependency to Inner Peace
It’s important to focus on
healing low self-esteem, lack of confidence, and reconnecting to your own body
— especially if you were sexually abused. That experience can split you in two,
but you are one.
The process is truly painful. You
move from emotional codependency — where you need love and can’t feel happy or
at peace because you’re not in a relationship — to a point where you feel happy
and at peace by yourself, but you still want a relationship. It’s a huge
difference.
You can compare emotional
codependency to using drugs, because you need a relationship as you’re afraid
of being alone, and you even feel unsafe that way. You can’t say no. You
sacrifice yourself by putting other people’s needs first and completely neglecting
your own. You need them to save you, fix you, and even protect you. That’s how
you know you are codependent.
When you’re codependent, you
can’t nurture yourself, so a relationship becomes the drug that supplies what
you lack. The problem is that it’s temporary. It won’t give you what you need
forever.
It’s truly important to be
self-sufficient and learn to give yourself the love you want to give — and even
the love you need. You can reject or deny the idea, but you deserve freedom.
A Message for You
I hope that through my
experience, you will not only accept your spiritual identity but also have the
courage to heal. I know you’re brave, and I believe in you. I hope you know it
too.
Feel free to comment about your spiritual or even physical experiences. I’m not here only to talk but mainly to listen. I would love to hear your thoughts. It would be an amazing experience.
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